I went back a read all the post from last year and realized how much I really knew about what was going on back then and how it took me so long to fix it.
A month after my last post I broke up with my boy friend. In September I met a man on eHarmony and we hit it off. March 6th we were married =)
All that deep hate and regret from my past faded away and left me feeling like I could really control my own life. My husband is supportive and amazing. Things are going so well now, the only thing left to change is my body....the original reason I made this blog....the reasons I failed.
I blamed everything around me, Oh, I'm sick, I'm broke, I'm depressed, I'm tired. But the fact is the only thing stopping me was myself. I'm lazy, I feel ok, maybe on the first I'll start taking care of myself, then something would come up and I'd say I'm too stressed to start taking care of myself right now.
Well the fact is I love myself. I shouldn't put myself on the back burner. If I hate my stomach or my thighs I need to fix it so I can have the most complete package. Mental and physical wellness. ^_^
It begins with picking a diet.....
yeah...
shit....
After much giving and shit I have found one that suits me as well as possible. I'm sick....all the time. Nausea, headaches, dizziness. My whole body is a failure at dealing with normal daily activities. I came to find out I'm allergic to existence, everything in America. Grass, trees, animals, foods...so after sifting through diet plans, where I was allergic to half the ideas, I found Paleo. Gluten free bliss. Meat and veggies....that's pretty much is. I can eat those.
The basic idea was humans didn't eat bread, or any other processed foods in the beginning so why should we?...
My body is an all natural fortress that needs to be protected by meat and exercise!
So I guess I'm renaming the project and starting over....again...no for real this time....aw screw it, if it happens I'll buy myself something nice...a boat? Yeah, a boat! haha! Let's give it a try!
Wish me luck!
Day one....
A step by step look at my attempt to change my body and my mind. Waging war on the thing that is keeping me trapped; my addiction to wheat and it's tasty friends: oats, rye, and barely...Damn beer...
